Is It Time For the Girly-man or the Manly-girl?

Well it has been a while since I’ve posted anything here and since we made it past the 12-21-12 benchmark I suppose that’s as good a reason to restart this thing as any.

A friend of mine on Facebook commented that she was tired of all the godESS talk and was more or less ready just to be a godess instead of just talking and hearing about it. Makes me think about what all the brouhaha is about anyway. This is suppose to be the beginning of the feminine coming into balance with the masculine. Balance. Not FEMALES RULE!, but balance. Not to mention it’s the beginning of some 26,000 year cycle, which may not be noticeable, for oh 10k years or so, in any discernable way. That is if one could live 10,000 years so you could compare it to now.

The deal, as I see it, is to just become more human. To embody all of the human qualities inherent in us that our Source would like to see us use. We all have all the qualities or energies in us. Although if it could be depicted with a bar chart, it would show great uniqueness in the ability of even knowing those potentials which we possess somewhere in the deep recesses of our souls.

So the feminine thing.

Anybody know what it is to be feminine? Anybody know the nuance of feminine energy?
Sure isn’t being exuded in Ann Coulter, Ellen DeGeneres, or the “We Can Do It!” poster girl.

Female energy is quiet, attractive, nurturing. It is patient as a root. Watchful and waiting, alert as a cat at a mouse hole. Hidden as magnetism. Wise and discerning as a steady hand diffusing a bomb. It is knowing without showing. It is coercive and cunning. Always ready to trap and hold its counterpart when willingness or weakness is shown. It is as destructive as the deception at the eye of a cyclone. It is total chaos in which something is born. It is fluid and cold. Dark and mysterious. ANYTHING can happen.

But if it is misused or unused it will yield and fester. It wil grow crooked and resentful. It’s hurt stature will deform into an insidious disease giving up what is demanded – but with a price, for it wil not be denied. How can it? It is part of Source. It is like trying to wipe up mercury. It will infiltrate where it can and will flourish even if disfigured to the point of disguise.  It is capitalism. It is consumerism. It is the greed that the patriarch cannot fulfill and it is driving him nuts.

You want no feminine input to life?
Choke on your wants!

You want to use it for a toy?
Go ahead, we’re plastic for you now.

You want to control our intended gift of life?
Hug your genetically modified offspring and forget that touch depravation even exists.

But that’s changing now.
The time now is to see this world with the intention of a mother –
nurturing growth for all that is Life giving and
respecting the danger while defending against any thought that is anti-life.

Ladies and gentlemen, it is time to be schooled in feminism. Not to be fooled by women acting masculine and claiming equal rights. Male and female are not equal, but harmonic opposites. We need both and we will find planetary happiness when both are pure and exuded fully in the spirit of Unity.

If I do not fully experienced it in this lifetime, I hope to be at least be found dead trying.

Comments, questions are always welcome.


Batin – The Hidden

In my town of Woodstock, IL there is something happening. I suspect it is happening everywhere but I have witnessed locally how the hidden agenda of those yearning for Peace, Justice  and Change have softer esoteric ways of weaving a higher consciousness into the fabric of our lives. As the video below shows, creating something that conveys a message, while in a state of hopeful prayer can be a way to advertise for a better world.

I call out to all the artists to flood our consciousness with visions, sounds, and thoughts of the world we all want – even if some have forgotten that we all are ultimately on the same side and want the same things.

Hats off to The Atropos Brigade and all others who, in a non-violent but persistant way, strive to awaken our True selves, that ulitimately love each other.

Music by John Prine, “Your Flag Decal Won’t Get You Into Heaven Anymore”

The Atropos Brigade

Meet the Other Woman

Llewellyn Vaughan-Lee is one of those rare finds, in my estimation, who holds many, many gifts. He is an exquisite blend of honesty, heart, humility, wisdom and vocabulary, that combined with a mind that draws from readings of sacred texts, poetry, musical lyrics and the classics of literature, makes listening to him an intriguing inquiry into one’s own self.
Speaking through his Heart, unlike channeling, Llewellyn transmits a message that leaves one with hope, understanding, (or yearning for it,) and Love. This talk, in two forty-minute parts, deals with the female side of the human incarnate. Calling on his extensive knowledge and training in Jungian psychology, Sufism, and “walking the path” and more, he relates to the listener a view of how to be with oneself for expanded knowing.

I hope these talks at least nudge you a little further along in your expansion.

I humbly submit…

Part 1

InnerPartner Part 1

Part 2

InnerPartner Part 2

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I would like to share something with you, but first a disclaimer.

What I am sharing should in no way be construed as a religious pitch, association, endorsement, or testimonial. It is just one way of looking at a piece of consciousness. If you can separate the package from the essence and gaze toward the essence, we’ll be in harmony.

I use the image of the diamond on many levels, from God to soul, to individual. The uncut diamond is raw, unrealized potential. After cutting, the faceted diamond has many points of view and each has it’s own quality of light. Each facet is a mirror as well as a window to the core. The whole and it’s parts. Without the parts the whole would not be.

Now this diamond may be covered with dirt until it’s self is unrecognizable, unmemorable. However it can be shined until it blinds us with it’s brilliance.

In this model the human is this Sacred Diamond. Mostly we are dirty with unacknowledged, unknown facets. We can, and do have varying states of cleanliness; shining facets, smudged facets, dirty facets, unknown facets, but we have the potential to be all clean, all the time.

Each one of these facets represents a quality, an essence of God — an essence of us. I use the Sufi explanations of these qualities to discover, investigate and contemplate the embodying of these qualities. I work to polish my facets, to “grok” the quality, in order to become the brilliant diamond I was meant to be.

Below are 3 links to the qualities. There are many more that can be found. The usual list is 99 qualities but it is said there are many, many more, and some lists you see are a little different that others.

If you sit with these qualities for a period of time you begin to see the bottomless Truth appear level by level. As you are ready to understand the meanings, what you thought you understood yesterday is not what you understand today, and tomorrow’s understanding will be integrated with your present wisdom.

This is a small explanation about God and His duties, and about what is known as the 99 Beautiful Names of Allah. The meanings of these names are endless, limitless, and indescribable. Even if all the water in the oceans were made into ink and the wood from all the forests were made into pens, we could not finish writing the explanations of these beautiful attributes of God.

— M.R. Bawa Muhaiyaddeen

One of the qualities is “Salam”, which means peace. You have probably met people who just have a peace about them. They relax you by just being with them. Such a person has that quality. And that is a quality which is a reflection of God, if you will. We all possess it, and in some that facet is unknown, dirty or ignored.

Below is one explanation or interpretation of this quality. I find reading different meanings from different sources, although basically the same, bring out subtle nuances with a deeper and expanded knowledge of the quality.

    • The Source of Peace, The Flawless, The Source of Wholeness and Well-Being
    • The One who is perfect, whole, prosperous and content.
    • The One who is the source of all peace, wholeness and safety.
    • The One who has rendered all of creation to be perfect, whole, prosperous and content.
    • The One whose creation is free of imperfections, free of faults and free of error.

From the root s-l-m which has the following classical Arabic connotations:

    • to be peaceful, quiet, tranquil, content, friendly, reconciled
    • to be free from imperfections, free from faults, complete, whole, sound
    • to be safe, secure, well, healthy, prosperous

This name is used in the Qur’ân. For example, see 59:23

This ancient Semitic root of s-l-m implies every manner of wholeness, completeness and prosperity.

Many seek peace by struggling, battling and trying to impose their will on others, yet external peace will only prevail as a reflection of inner peace. The only path to outer peace is awareness of the tranquil depths of inner peace, and the only source of such inner peace is the One known as as-Salâm.

According to Râghib the word Islam, which arises form this same s-l-m root, means to enter into salm… which means to enter into peace, or to enter into wholeness. That is, the word Islam means to be at peace with or reconciled with the ways and decrees of Allâh, and is often described as self-resignation, surrender or submission to the will of Allâh.

If you sit with this quality you may see that the state of Peace is more than being just quiet or non-combative. If you follow the thread of peace in every sentence, every word, through to your inner self and deeper to The Source you will see that it also shows you Perfection – since all is peaceful with no need to change anything. It also shows you the place of creation since it takes an impulse or spark which disturbs the Peace somewhat to create something, but the quality of Peace is needed to “hear” the idea and nourish the impulse.

If the human being would grok just one of these qualities and shine that facet of his diamond to perfection he would surely live in heaven.

Diamonds are God’s best friend.

Links you may find further quality info:

The Ninety Nine Names

Names of Allah

The Sufi Book of Life – Oracle

U-nity Gritty

Driving down the road thinkin’ ’bout reincarnation…

Been back and forth and sideways on this for a while. Used to be I thought that we must return over and over again until we reach perfection — wasn’t really sure why, maybe… well maybe… yeah, didn’t know why. Figured that was privy to G-O-D .

Thought that for a while until I ran into a Sufi Master (yeah, like THAT was an accident!) who said reincarnation didn’t happen; this life was it. Now I’m confused. Oh yeah, when a Sufi Master talks you have to be aware; be VERY aware. Aware of who he is talking to, when, how, and why, for two people can ask the same question and get two diametrically opposed answers. Relative truths, I suppose. Basically, the lesson to be learned is that you don’t listen with your physical ears anyway you receive a transmission through the Heart, usually while he is triggering the crap out of you. Anywho, reading another Sufi master I found reincarnation to be believed and discussed as matter of course. Doh!

Enter the Unity discussion; that is the hot topic these days. We are all One, Oneness, The Great Spirit, El Big Kahuna. OK, we are all One. So what is it, or who is it that is coming back, if we do indeed come back? And who said we come back here anyway? Not counting the past life devotee that see you (or themselves) as a reincarnated King James, Cleopatra, Hitler’s First Lieutenant or Ben Hur. How come nobody gets the message their past life was lived as a plumber named Ralph Swarski from Cleveland who ate swiss cheese sandwiches for lunch everyday? My apologies to any Ralph Swarski’s for the reference and nothing against Cleveland, but I digress.

If one thinks of Unity as ALL energy that separates into duality (how this is done, God only knows) and then into multiplicity that takes form at differing levels of vibrating consciousness, then one can at least conceptually, see how we have mineral, vegetable, and animal. Rocks have consciousness, as do plants and animals. Contemplating the plant world may give us a clue about how It works.

Plant a seed, it germinates, sprouts, grows, bears fruit or flower, drops a seed, withers, dies and returns through the dropped seed that germinates, and we’re off to the races. Now this new flower is not the last flower that died, but it is one with it. It has the same essence, the same particular plant-ness, but it is unique. Where is the dead flower?

If you crush a rock, and scatter it in the wind, the rock comes back to earth. Do you call each particle a rock, pieces of THE rock or the earth?

The soul can return as a different human, with a different nervous system — a unique brain with a unique mind — but the essence, (the soul,) is the same, though not the same as the soul who had the last body. It has evolved to a different “place.” The soul is like a finger on the hand of Unity, so just like the soul has/had many bodies, Unity has many souls. And since Unity is, well EVERYTHING, It’s body has many hands or body parts, and different manifestations of those hands and fingers. Some are in other galaxies some are in this one, and some vibrate at rates not discernible to most humans

Of course this is just my feeble thoughts at this point but it begs the question, “Huh?”

I know. This is a rabbit hole that could go down forever.

The soul reincarnates.

The personality doesn’t.

So for me, the assumption that striving for perfection in order to come back to live a better life as a result of karmic debts paid, might not hold water if we view the process as God making the Soul. The thing is, we don’t really exist as anything more than a “thought” or impulse of God. He/She experienced the impulse through our lives and then incorporated the knowledge gained from the experience as wisdom, and used it to raise consciousness for the next go-round. The THOUGHT is not the real thing, and probably the Soul isn’t either because the only thing Real is The One. Nobody really knows The One. All we can do as God’s impulse is to let go of our perceived individual importance and help God raise consciousness by — wait for it —


The Cosmic Ball

Thanks for the dance
I’m sorry you’re tired
The evening has hardly begun
Thanks for the dance
Try to look inspired
One two three, one two three one

Ahhh… The dance of the soul and the ego. A delicious meal comprised of sickeningly sweet desserts and healthy green Brussels sprouts. Yes, time has hardly scratched the surface and you are feeling as interested in the lessons of life as a punker’s interest in the Scouts of America. But the soul untiringly asks for your interest because, after all, we’re dancing for a reason.

There’s a rose in my hair
My shoulders are bare
I’ve been wearing this costume
Turn up the music
Pour out the wine
Stop at the surface
The surface is fine
We don’t need to go any deeper

Avoi-dance, masks, how we intricately weave deception. So well that we do not even suspect it most of the time. Oh it’s OK, no need to go deeper. You just make trouble for yourself. Bask in the drunken song of desire. Good times!

Thanks for the dance
I hear that we’re married
One two three, one two three one
Thanks for the dance
And the baby I carried
It was almost a daughter or a son

At some point we remember there is a connection to our soul. There is no getting away from it. We bought the ring, signed the papers and consummated the relationship. “We” will birth something and we will probably fall short of integrating all of yin and yang. But we feel thankful for the intention we had.

And there’s nothing to do
But to wonder if you
Are as hopeless as me
And as decent

All we really need to do is to be. We, at some point, enter that dark night and lose the compass we thought we had secured in our grasp that Source had so mercifully given. Is my soul good? Do I come from good stock? All we can do is wait and wonder.

We’re joined in the spirit
Joined at the hip
Joined in the panic
Wondering if
We’ve come to some sort
Of agreement

We are one with our soul and it, with our ego, gets a little nervous – no we’re shaking in our boots that maybe we’ve given up and said, “No more, I’ll take what I got” It’s OK here, i don’t need to be Perfect. Settling is OK, isn’t it? I Fear God!

It was fine it was fast
I was first I was last
In line at the
Temple of Pleasure
But the green was so green
And the blue was so blue
I was so I
And you were so you
The crisis was light
As a feather

As we hit the next plateau, we look back at the climb. The rocks, the crevasses, the wide rivers and the skinned – and healed knees. Perspective makes it look doable – laughable really. The desires that grew and withered are now meaningless. And it was a good fight. A delicious victory over the formidable opponent that now seems impotent and not worth the fret.

Thanks for the dance
It’s been hell, it’s been swell
It’s been fun
Thanks for all the dances
One two three, one two three one

Leonard Cohen

Ahhh… Thank you for that schooling which, although was something I’m glad I did, I don’t want to do it again. The Life Dance was exhilarating.

Well… maybe one more dance.

Maestro, music please!


My ongoing experiment in listening has provided an insight to what I feel is an underlying, but certainly not insignificant, reason for yours Truly to have created this blog.

As usual the Divine message has come from an unexpected source of the Source. It has revealed itself in an episode of, a previously unbeknownst to me, TV series I found through Netflix, entitled Numb3rs. The backdrop for the series is the FBI whose Team leader incorporates the help of his younger brother to help solve mysteries through mathematics. This brother, Charlie Epps, is a world renown mathematician. An Einstein type, a prodigy who also professors at Cal Sci.

Charlie analyzes data, then writes endless algorithms to define patterns which can deduce the next move of the bad guy. In short – he’s got their number.

There are over 100 episodes that span 6 seasons, which allows the viewer themselves to see patterns develop. Charlie is endlessly searching – sometimes not knowing for what.

Then the flash comes.

My flash came while Charlie was a little befuddled. He was just awarded the same office as his predecessors at Cal Sci, and while moving in, found letters that each had written to the succeeding Math Pro containing insights to what they perceived their lifes’ work to be. Now Prof Charlie feels a little pressure to define himself. After a while he takes pen in hand and poetically describes not what he feels his life’s work is, but what it does. Or at least what he hopes it does.

His insight reveals that whatever his findings, the important thing is not the answer to the impossible riddle he solved, but how the packet of enlightenment relates to everyone it reaches, as it utilizes the cosmic synapse between all of life. His Divine desire is that his Gift touches other hearts – and the more the better. The melding of his offered Gift with the open accepting hands of the inhabitants of this world, is the Divine marriage Charlie is yearning for. That is what feeds him. What makes him grow and be ever created. This reciprocity serves where Math comes from. It is what allows Source to know Itself. This allows for more evidence to be revealed through search, discovery and creation.

In hearing that, I realized that this is what I hope for this blog – this Internet. The relating of heart-minds, the connection of like and un-like notions that result in expanding The Knowing a little more and opening to the Wisdom of that enlightenment, then offering it to others.

I will be fed, not by what I write, but how openly you relate to it and how much you expand your/our/The evidence of source. We can disagree. We can trigger each other. And we can allow each other to be where we are and allow ourselves to be taken somewhere else. That is why I welcome any comments, any ratings and humbly invite you to subscribe.

We are all in unique “places” in our overlapping and spiraling consciousness and through realting we can all taste the most delicious piece of the pi.

I am Grateful for this vehicle. I pray that I can Hear the signs along the way and offer them to you – with You.


Here is a great audio to curl up and have a cup of tea with: Patterns